The Journey Home: The Spirit of Lay Practitioner Wang’s Aborted Child

This is a record of an interview with the spirit of the aborted child of Lay Practitioner Wang, who sought Chao Du at the Hsiang Kuang Pure Land Buddhist Centre in Australia. The spirit now resides in the Western Land of Ultimate Bliss. This account reflects upon the spirit's journey from the trauma of abortion to the peace of the Western Land of Ultimate Bliss. Recorded by the chief writer, Shi Fajing, on November 1, 2024.

The Spirit of the Aborted Child speaks:

"Mother, Mother! I have finally arrived at the Western Land of Ultimate Bliss! I have truly made it to the Western Land of Ultimate Bliss!

Right now, I have finally stopped crying. I have woken up from that long, dark dream. I know now that I am no longer just a lost infant spirit; I have been restored to my original form. I also understand that I have attained liberation. I have returned to the Western Land of Ultimate Bliss of Namo Amituofo, and I no longer have to wander through the endless cycle of rebirth."

The Trauma of Being Torn Away

"When I was still a tiny fetus in my mother's womb, only a short time had passed before I was cruelly taken away. I remember it so clearly. I used every ounce of my strength to try and hold onto my mother, but I could not grasp her. There was such a powerful, violent force that tore me away from her body. In that instant, I felt such intense pain and overwhelming sorrow. I kept screaming for my mother, but she could not hear me. She heard nothing at all.

After I was forced to leave my mother, I could never find her again. I cried every single day; there was not a single moment of respite. My body eventually grew, and I became large enough to crawl upon the ground."

A Lonely Journey Through the Underworld

"I spent my days crawling everywhere, constantly calling out, 'Mother, Mother!' Whenever I saw a passerby whose back looked even slightly like hers, I would rush toward them and call out to them, but they would only look at me with cold, indifferent eyes before turning away to continue their own business. I would feel so heartbroken, yet I continued to crawl and search, but I could never find where my mother had gone.

I was wandering through the underworld. There were so many uncles and aunts there, but I did not know any of them, and they did not care about me. Everyone was just busy with their own affairs. I kept crying and searching. It felt as though I had been searching for a very, very long time, though I do not know how long it truly was. I only remember that every day was the same: crawling on the ground, weeping, and calling out. There was not a single day that was different from the last.

In truth, I never held any hatred toward my mother. I thought that if I could only find her, she would surely want me back. I believed that I had simply lost my way and that she was unable to find me. Because of this, I was so anxious and terrified. I just wanted to find her quickly and return to her side."

The Golden Light of Deliverance

"Then, that day, while I was still crawling, weeping, and calling out, a brilliant golden light suddenly shone upon me, and I was carried away. Shortly after, I arrived at the place where Practitioner Su resides. It was so bright, so warm, and so incredibly comfortable. I began to listen to the Buddha-name. At first, I did not know how to chant it, nor did I know how to sing it, but eventually, I learned. When I first listened to the sutras, I could not understand them at all. Every single sentence was a mystery to me.

However, as time passed, I felt as though I began to grow. My body grew larger and larger until I became an adult, and I finally began to understand the teachings of the sutras. I was even able to see my own past. Everything finally became clear to me; I understood that this was the cycle of rebirth. In that moment of awakening, I made the firm decision to return to the Western Land of Ultimate Bliss. I knew that only by returning to the Western Land could I truly be liberated.

I am so grateful to my mother for helping me receive Chao Du, which allowed Practitioner Su to bring me back to the Western Land of Ultimate Bliss. I am doing very well now, and I am here chanting the name of Namo Amituofo. Mother, you must also diligently chant Namo Amituofo so that we may be reunited in the Western Land."

Namo Amituofo.